03 Mar
I have a confession to make…
I can be a bit of an insecure jerk! Okay, maybe a lot more than a bit on my bad days. I need to apologize to blogland for giving the impression that Superman is a jerk; cause he isn't. We have been having a difficult few months and I have let my insecurities get the best of me. I like to think that I have made it to adulthood unscathed but the reality is that every now and again I pick up a bit of baggage that I though I had long ago gotten rid of it and I have taken it out on him unfairly. I can be an ass! Monday and Tuesday were two such days. I recognize it, really and truly this time, and I promise to do better. I have to do better! The situation we are experiencing is not ideal nor is what I want but I could be dealing with it a 100% better than I have. It's like I see myself handling things wrong yet I'm helpless to stop it. I just keep stumbling and doing all of the wrong things and the more I try and correct the more I seem to fcuk up. I don't know what's going on with me but I need to get it together QUICKLY!!! Improving myself will be a top my to-do-list as well as my prayer list.
Hey Cyn,
Maybe God wants you to work on your self esteem before he allows a relationship. If things are meant to be they will be. Don’t let your fear of losing Superman stop you from healing and being the you you can be. Let Go!! Heal! Banish your insecurities and when the time is right you will be blessed with a man that loves you like Christ loves the church. It may or may not be Superman…but it seems like God is putting up roadblocks for a reason… not blocking you but protecting you until you are ready.
March 3rd, 2010 at 5:57 pmHey Sherry,
March 4th, 2010 at 3:57 pmYou make great points as always. There are definitely things I can be and NEED to be working on. I thing the key for me is recognizing them and working through them before I allow them to be a disturbance to my life. I’m sure doubts and insecurities will creep in but letting them lead me will surely be my down fall.