07 Feb
Saturday
I just got back from my hair appointment and I am feeling beautiful. My hair is blowing in the breeze and I feel like I should be singing the Just For Me song. In the year and a half since I cut it short it's grown tremendously and now that my ends are trimmed I realize my hair is far healthier than I thought. I hope I can keep it up because feeling pretty does wonders for my mood.
I feel pretty, oh so pretty.
My honey is away on his annual Super Bowl cruise and I am missing him like crazy. Thursday we kinda debated about whether of not we should spend V-Day together. Here's yet another area where we don't see eye to eye and I can't figure out a compromise. It's not just V-Day, more importantly it's his birthday and it means a lot to me that we spend it together. I understand his point of view but yet in still it means a lot to me and that should be enough. It doesn't have to be a big production, just us hanging out like usual. I guess the reality of it is, it's his birthday and it's his choice. If I end up spending it alone I will have to think about what that says and means to me. I had kinda decided that I was through and I was gonna try my best to detach and then he came over and just talked and told me how much he loved me and here I am again...so in love and so confused. He worries that special events will send me mixed signals and yet comes over and tells me from the bottom of heart how he feels as if that's any easier. I'm grateful that he told me cause I definitely needed the reminder. I don't know what to do; this man has my whole heart and I have his and yet it just won't come together.
I went to a volunteer mixer for the breast cancer foundation and then out for the drinks with the girls. It was nice to get out even though I was a bit sleepy. I enjoyed myself and was glad I went but my mind was a bit preoccupied. The gBFF and I returned to my place to chat till 2am. It was nice to have a heart to heart and just talk and listen. Even though I forget it sometimes- she and I are so much alike. Hopeful, outgoing, optimistic and totally loving. She understands, never judges and has my best interest at heart. It's so hard to explain a situation I don't fully understand myself and one that can be slightly embarrassing but somehow she gets it. I'm glad the she can see just how amazing Superman is too and that she genuinely believes that he loves me. That makes me feel less foolish. I'm blessed to have her.
I can't say I am happy this weekend but I am not too sad. More thoughtful than anything else. I grocery shopped so I need to cook and pack my lunches for the week and finally do my laundry. I am so looking forward to my honey coming home on Monday. It's hell to not talk to him but I'll survive and I think this break will have been good for us both. I'm prayerful that he will come home rested and revived.
I feel pretty, oh so pretty.
My honey is away on his annual Super Bowl cruise and I am missing him like crazy. Thursday we kinda debated about whether of not we should spend V-Day together. Here's yet another area where we don't see eye to eye and I can't figure out a compromise. It's not just V-Day, more importantly it's his birthday and it means a lot to me that we spend it together. I understand his point of view but yet in still it means a lot to me and that should be enough. It doesn't have to be a big production, just us hanging out like usual. I guess the reality of it is, it's his birthday and it's his choice. If I end up spending it alone I will have to think about what that says and means to me. I had kinda decided that I was through and I was gonna try my best to detach and then he came over and just talked and told me how much he loved me and here I am again...so in love and so confused. He worries that special events will send me mixed signals and yet comes over and tells me from the bottom of heart how he feels as if that's any easier. I'm grateful that he told me cause I definitely needed the reminder. I don't know what to do; this man has my whole heart and I have his and yet it just won't come together.
I went to a volunteer mixer for the breast cancer foundation and then out for the drinks with the girls. It was nice to get out even though I was a bit sleepy. I enjoyed myself and was glad I went but my mind was a bit preoccupied. The gBFF and I returned to my place to chat till 2am. It was nice to have a heart to heart and just talk and listen. Even though I forget it sometimes- she and I are so much alike. Hopeful, outgoing, optimistic and totally loving. She understands, never judges and has my best interest at heart. It's so hard to explain a situation I don't fully understand myself and one that can be slightly embarrassing but somehow she gets it. I'm glad the she can see just how amazing Superman is too and that she genuinely believes that he loves me. That makes me feel less foolish. I'm blessed to have her.
I can't say I am happy this weekend but I am not too sad. More thoughtful than anything else. I grocery shopped so I need to cook and pack my lunches for the week and finally do my laundry. I am so looking forward to my honey coming home on Monday. It's hell to not talk to him but I'll survive and I think this break will have been good for us both. I'm prayerful that he will come home rested and revived.